always on the move..going nowhere

we've been out and about recently. consequently i haven't blogged much. apologies.
also i have had a lot going on it my little brain of mine and havent really been n the right mind set to sit and put it all out there. again, apologies.
i often find that i have a lot of avenues of thought that don't really go anywhere. i think it comes from being part of a generation with too many options.
dont get me wrong, options are good! i'm not bashing options! bring on the options. it just means that the fear rushes in from time to time.
am i making the right choice? would i rather do something else? it makes it difficult to stick to something because committing to one thing means you may well be missing out on something else. my working life is a great example of this. i have chopped and changed my jobs as if they were outfits. the longest i've had a job was for 5 years. for a 31 year old i'm not sure if that's unusual or not. either way, it's a drag, not knowing what to do.i'd like to be any of the following:

a psychologist
a primary school teacher
a wool shop owner
a travel writer
a professional dog walker
a professional crafter
a radio dj

HAH! do you see any patterns here? me neither. there are other ambitions but they are fleeting. these are the ones that have come up again and again and yet i have done none of the things to bring me closer to any of these careers.
ahhhhhhh fuck it.
just life innit?

here's a song

i just found the best thing on the internet for the bear.
i think i will have to buy it for him..

http://www.beardoil.co.uk/

the advert for it is wicked and it's made in Norfolk too!
it has 4 different types that have been developed! FOUR!!!!! a whole section of life i had never known about until now. beard products.

Listen to this:

The NORFOLK Beard Oil Story

NORFOLK BEARD OILS for the Man who is KING, WARRIOR, MAGICIAN, LOVER

WHAT KIND OF MAN ARE YOU?

Norfolk Beard Oil is a return to the vanishing principles of masculinity defined by “The Beard”, a declaration of authenticity and integrity; a Man making a stand for what he believes in and not being afraid of showing who he truly is.

We are witnessing a beard renaissance where modern man is once again connecting with his roots of true masculinity.

By creating four special beard oil blends allied to the key male archetypes of King, Warrior, Magician and Lover, Norfolk Beard Oil are redefining what it is to be a Man.

Our Vision is for men across the world to reclaim their roles of King, Warrior, Magician, Lover, and to Serve, Protect , Inspire and Love with deep integrity and heartfelt authenticity.

Join us on this exciting Journey...

now...is the bear a king, warrior, magician or lover????

I'm gonna have to work that out before i splurge £36 0f my hard earned english pounds on it but hell, the packaging is nice and i'm aaaaalll about the packaging!

video killed the radio star

winter
it kinda sucks for various different reasons. i'm not good with the cold and i have to say i'm not a fan of snow. don't get me wrong, i get a little pang of excitement as much as the next person when you look out of your kitchen window and see a blanket of snow-not because of snowball fights and building snowman though! oh no, it's mainly because for a split second, i'm weighing up whether there is enough snow to warrant calling work and saying that i can't make it, as the snow is too bad.
this is then shortly followed by the crushing disappointment that i live in the centre of town and there is no chance in hell i can use that as an excuse...oh well.
coldness and annoying snow days aside, i don't actually mind the winter, i can even stand getting up in the dark and going home in the dark for one reason, and it's the only reason i need.....it's boxset/movie season in our house.
winter is a time when you can get away with being completely antisocial on a friday and saturday night without the fear of reprisal. everyone wants to stay in when it's cold and, lets face it, there's no better way of getting through a wintery night then watching episode after episode of a truly wicked telly series.

and in no particular order, here are some of the most wicked ones that have gotten me through the depression on winter:

1)the sopranos
the life of tony soprano and his two families: the one at home and the one who puts the bread on the table. best characters ever created for a tv show ever-i challenge you to prove me wrong. I've seen it all the way through from start to finish 3 times and i came out of it wanting to be married to the mafia
bad bits: a dream sequence that goes on for two whole episodes in season 4, oh and you can't rely on your much loved characters staying alive for a full season.
favourite character: carmela soprano, tonys long suffering highly intelligent wife.

2)the wire
drug dealers and cops but who are the good guys? amazing dialogue! blackly funny and not a duff season amongst  all 5.
bad bits: if i had to choose my least favourite, probably season 2. it's not set on the corner, thats the only bad thing!
favourite character: it's between bubbles and omar little, you've just got to love them, no matter how naughty they are. and they are naughty boys.

3)freaks and geeks
heartbreakingly sweet take on life as a high school kid set it the late 70's early 80's.
bad bits: there aren't any. literally none, well some of the actings a bit wooden at times but practically everyone in it went on to be a star such as james franco, seth rogan, jason segal.
favourite character: harold weir-the main characters dad, has some cracking one liners including "You know who used to cut class? Jimi Hendrix. You know what happened to him? He died! Choking on his own vomit."

4)sons of anarchy
men with beards and tattoo's riding motorbikes, whats not to like?
bad bits: we're on season 5 at the moment and i'm not feeling it as much as i was. also one of the characters tara has become almost unbearably annoying.
favourite character: opie (*sob*) who looks almost exactly like the bear.

5)breaking bad
beaten down by life chemistry teacher walter, turns bad ass crack dealer.
never rooted so hard for a crack dealer before.
bad bits: you do begin to wonder how he keeps getting away with it!also walter's wife skyler is so annoying you want to kick her in the ovaries.
favourite character: jesse, walters slightly over trusting partner- grows from a ridiculous wigga to shrewd business man.

6)boardwalk empire
1920's glamour mixed with politics great clothes and great characters
bad bits: sometimes can be a bit draggy and dry in places
favourite character: jimmy-you can't help but fall in love with the romantic boy, even if he does turn into a bit of a jerk come season 3

7)twin peaks
weird, wonderful and frankly terrifying who dunnit....and you'll never guess who did it!
bad bits: sometimes the music bed in the background of the scenes can grate a little, the bear can't watch it as is annoys him so much, and the characters of james and donna are so gut wrenchingly vomitsome and pointless that you can pretty much skip their scenes and not miss a thing.
favourite character: pete martell. long suffering husband to the cheating knife tongued catherine, he has some of the best lines including: "she's dead, wrapped in plastic" and "you're not gonna believe this..there was a fish in the percolator!"

8)modern family
very simple premise of three different family set ups, leans to some of the most hilarious one liners ever in a comedy series, bar none. seriously.
this is a new one for us, discovered on netflix and possibly the best comedy series i've seen (blows friends  out of the water) me and the bear were crying with laughter at different points, it's honestly that good.
bad bits: the most recent series seemed to have less identifiable scenerio's to your average watcher
best character: cam, the farm boy, big cuddly bear of a man who is flamboyantly gay with a heart of gold

9)mad men
the life and times of a 1950s-1960's advertising agency with some of the most incredible furniture and clothes to covert. it's a feast for the eyes.
bad bits: i'm struggling to come up with any...maybe...not enough joan?
best character: joanie, she's intelligent, sassy, beautiful with a great ass and boobies. she is a dream on the screen and gets some great lines.

now, i'm leaving a space for 10, here's always room in my life for another great boxset.
other ones i considered (but didn't quite make it into the coveted realms) were:
the lakes which is incredible, close contender, maybe i should watch that again soon.
this life, would bring back a lot of memories of my teenage years!
walking dead, pretty good, some wewl gud killingths....

i'm always open to suggestions?
go any good ones? i'm all ears! (and eyes)

project 11

i haven't written much on here lately and that's mainly as there's been a fair amount going on, lots of decisions to make and lots of bits and pieces to plan which always makes me feel like i'm not making enough of my free time.
I do tend to bitch and moan about not having enough time to do the things i want to do and then when i have that time i can't motivate myself to do anything!
(yup! i'm one of those people) i find it difficult to focus, thoughts scattered all over. too much i wanna do. so much in fact that i get scared and don't know where to begin!

so. i've decided to become proactive.
i have decided to set myself monthly goals as having a deadline usual kicks me into shape, even if it is just for my own stuff.

one of my big loves (but the thing i get the most scattered thoughts about frankly) is making stuff.
i can knit, i can crochet and i can use my sewing machine but i am at basic level at best!
i tend to only really make things when it for a purpose rather then for enjoyment lately, such as birthdays, christmas craft fayres...and i need to sharpen myself up and learn some new skills before i get bored with my limited knowledge and hit a wall so.
today i've been picking through my craft magazines (mollie makes is one that i tend to buy when i see it) and chosen 11 projects to make.
1 a month. (i know what you're thinking "there's 12 months in a year" but cut me some slack, this month is almost over k? k!)

i'm aiming for:   3 knitting
                          3 crochet
                          3 hand sew/embroider
                          2 sewing machine (only 2 mainly as it can be a bit antisocial so i get put off doing it!)

hey!you never know i may squeeze in some more if i'm super speedy.

so. february. this is for you! owl gloves. i've made gloves before but only from my own pattern so following a pattern with a motif (yikes) is gonna be a whoooooole new experience for me! so, here goes nuttin.
i will post pictures as and when i start these bad boys. wish me luck!
(oh and to any friends or family reading-be warned, most of these little "projects" will probably become birthday/christmas presents for you, no matter how rubbish and mis-shapen so best hopes i get the hang of them aye?)

Project 1: Owl Gloves( i refuse to call them wrist warmers-they are fingerless gloves, end of)

more reasons to be thankful

wool
screen print posters
glue guns
jack kerouac
jack daniels
matt morgan
planes
youtube
the boss
SLR camera's
the fact my fake uggs boot have lasted for over a year
building up lieu time
ipswich film theatre
hot chocolate
hairdryers
modern family
converse
patti smith

we're already on the 21st of january! wowzers. we are well and truly into the new year. dag nammit!

so i've come home from work with what feels potentially like a head cold and, as anyone who knows me knows...this happens a lot, i mean like every couple of months or so (seriously) and it made me think that anyone who doesn't know me and may read these random nuggets of thought (fingers crossed) may wanna know more about the me and the bear.

First of all, who is the bear?

the bear would be my long suffering cohabiting boyfriend. he is big and hairy and therefore i refer to him as the bear. it's pretty much as simple as that really.

he's a carpenter, he wears plaid shirts and jackets and he has a big beard. 

he has a sort of lumberjack vibe going on which i guess is the opposite of a bear in a way but the image of a big bear living in my house amuses me and therefore its stuck.i don't really call him bear to his face as that makes me feel sort of icky as i'm not really into the whole pet name thing but i will address cards to "the bear" and buy him bear related gifts.

he looks like this:

Cute huh? he also sports some tattoo's, making him even cuter in my book.he is the kindest, sweetest most patient, infuriating know-it-all i have ever met and i wouldn't change him for anything. he's my best mate before anything else and i'm very lucky (most of the time) to have him on my side, fighting my corner in life. anyways, enough of that, i need to talk about the kid *ahem*sorry, the dog.

buddy.otherwise known as the budster, bud bud, sillypup, that mangy mutt or naughty hound.

the newest member of the house, we took her under our collective wings and we've had her now for  a little over a month and the truth is...we can't really remember what life was like without her.it's weird how that happens. for one thing she is incredible comedy value. 

it's been snowing this last week and watching her charge around like some kind of manic toddler is hilarious. she also has little to know spacial awareness and living with her means keeping one eye on her oversized bonce, worrying that it will collide with a table edge, again, much like you would with a manic toddler. she is cute, cuddly, and very much the bears dog.

there are many many pictures of her (us being proud parents an' all) and at some point i'm sure i will post them but for now, this is the one and only, the Budster:

again, cute huh? please excuse all the crap i the background of the photo. i would say that that is unusual for us to be so free with our mess but i would be lying. it's a sickness that we are trying to cure.

so lastly, leaves me. i'm a 31 year old drifter in life really. i try a lot of things and wait for them to stick. the main things that have stuck in my life so far have been music, films, reading and crafting. by crafting i mean crochet, knitting and sewing. something of which i will bore you with over time i'm sure. i'm not a good self promoter so for now, i will just post a picture and be done with it.

so that's us. no great mysteries here! 

when i'm feeling less crappy i will try and come up with some more inspiring posts but for now, im tucked up in bed so this is all i got people! na night.

hello there!
as it's friday i will keep it brief.
this song (see below) has been rattling around in my tiny mind like an earworm for days and days.
it's a doozie!
enjoy!!

Sea Wolf-You're a Wolf

p.s. when i work out how to put the software on here i will make mix tapes (i've been agonising over trying to do this for about a week and my brain hurts but it WILL happen)